There's a song by Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir called "I Made It."
Some of the lyrics are:
I've been through many hard trials,
I couldn't explain it, no, I didn't know why,
why I had to go through so much pain;
but praise the Lord, today there is healing in His name.
I made it, so thankful,
I never could have made it this far without the Lord.
Through sorrow (He was my comfort and all my strength).
Through heartache (Jesus healed all of my sins).
Depression (now I can sing).
I think it's important to point out that even though the title of the song is "I Made It," the point is not to say that I have arrived (I never could have made it this far without the Lord). I did make it through Thanksgiving. It was really difficult, and I still cry a lot. But God is moving me through, one step at a time.
My pastor, Lindell Cooley, did a sermon last week on thankfulness. He made an amazing illustration about unthankfulness - if there is a huge sheet of white paper on a wall, and there is a black dot in the middle of it, you will focus on the black dot, not the rest of the white. If the black dot is the crappy stuff going on in your life, the white stuff is all the things you should be thankful for. We should learn to focus on the white paper, not the black dot.
It's just so hard when the black dot discolors everything else in your life.
But I'm working on it.
Love hurts. I wish it wasn't so complicated.
